I'm in a LDR now for about 4 months. I've met this girl on chat, and that started our relationship. We call each other through VOIP application everyday. She told me about herself and i could say that she is a "spoiled brat" and "perfectionist". And because of that i always get indirect harsh words whenever she gets irritated of me or of something, but i didn't complain and just ignore it. It's just a small thing that doesn't need to get big. But the problem is this:
1. She have seen me through cam but I've only seen her in picture.
whenever i ask her why she didn't want to show herself to me, she always says the she doesn't want to, and if i still ask her why she will get mad at me and eventually turns to break up situation because she feels unfair about what she is doing to me. Well, at the first place i've never love her because of looks, but for who she is and that is all that matter, but, the thing is i just want to see her and i don't see a reason why she doesn't want me to see her.
2.Ex-boyfriend is phoning her. Once is enough. but it happens a lot. Although she always tells me that her ex phoned her, one corner of my mind asking why does she answer those calls?
3. She's always thinking of breaking up with me then eventually take her words back.. i don't know why. And every time he do that i'm starting to think that he can't set me free because of what i've shown to her that his past boyfriends cannot.
4. She can't or don't want to express what's she's thinking. I can't read her, and its hard for me.
5. I Still love her even though thats the way she treats me. And for that i am a fool. i just want to end this but i can't do it. I've fallen for someone that i don't know much..
I need advice please...
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