Nearing end of LDR

[Swederica]

Ok. Seeming the reply rate at this forum isn't all that great i'm not counting on any reply.
Anway. I live in Sweden and i'm 19 years old.
Soon a year ago i met a girl on a webchat. She said she was 16 years old and lives in California.
She was just perfect. Like her personality was so wonderful and loving and so close to my own so i couldn't help falling in love with her, and she fell in love with me too.
Then suddenly she revealed that she were only 15. So there are a 3.5 year difference between us. Which doesn't seem all that great. But i do love her and i'm the one having the biggest emotional problems with this whole relationship.
I'm unemployed atm because of the financial crisis and i don't know what i want to become so i have no interest in studying. In addition to that i live in a pretty isolated area and most of my friends have moved away. So i'm pretty much alone and got most of my time doing nothing. So i'm basically sitting and thinking of her like all days long. I'm trying to make it easier for me but she's my everything. I love her so much. I'm crying like atleast once a week because i miss talking to her. I even got into a depression like a month ago because it seemed we didn't have a future. I haven't met her yet but everything feels so natural when we talk and webcam and everything. So anyway i got depressed cuz i didn't know when i would see her or how i could deal another two years of this.
So well a friend suggested i'd apply for a college near her. Which ofc is a great idea and i am applying and i've been accepted and all financial aid is in place and everything. So after this summer i will be very close to her and be able to see her now and then and my life will straighten up.
Despite that i feel kinda sad because i want her now and rather not wait. Also she have to go away for a week under which we will barely be able to communicate AT ALL! And i dread that week and like i'm scared out of my life for that.
But i'm trying to overcome it by thinking that when August hits i will be with her and everything will just be perfect. So i'll get through that single week somehow.

Anyway i just felt like sharing my story, anyway anyone who have had anything similar?

[T<3Pringle]

nice story. I'm 19 and live in Norway. I can tell you that age difference doesn't matter much, and 3,5 years is nut much at all. my boyfriend is 9 years older than me, but that doesn't affect us much. He lives in Canada, but we met in NY, but that's another story.

Remember when you're moving this far away that you are studying something for yourself, to develop yourself. and that both of you will change over time, but you will have to change and grow together, and make it something positive. But remember she's just 15, she still has a lot of her life to figure out herself. so help eachother out, and have a great life both of you. but good luck on a fresh start at a school in a totally new place, sounds like you could need a change.

It's really hard being away from somebody you care for a lot.
i haven't seen my boyfriend for 4 months now, and still 1 to go before i'm off to canada for the summer, but you just gotta stick through it.

though you can't communicate you can allways write some really nice thaughtfull emails that she can read and reply when she gets home.
and thinking about whats awaiting is also good. and having stuff to be occupied with in the meanwhile is also good.

good luck with everything. (må lykken gro som gresset bak do)