I really, really hope it is.
In the not too distant past, ive had trust and jealousy issues because my partners friends are mostly female. At first I kept me feelings from him, but it got so bad things had to change.
I let him see his friends and do things with them instead of coming to see me closer to the start of the relationship, but each time id find out he'd done or talked about things i wasnt confortable with.
he said he didnt realise he was flirty and couldnt understand why i was getting upset.
After one time of me getting really upset about a present he'd bought one of his friend, I got my message across. For the last year almost, he's been more considerate of my feelings and even stopped talking to one of them.
I really appreciated that, and to be honest i think i needed it. It showed me how important i was to him and gave me chance to stop worrying and just enjoy our relationship.
However, next week he's going to a festival he always go to with a group of his female friends, one of which being the one he stopped talking to.
Ive known this for quite some time and hoped i could regain control of my negitive feelings before he went.
Now its actually arrived, i do feel slightly more in control and tried to talk to him about it. He got annoyed that i was still feeling jealous.
I really wasnt expecting it, and it made me really upset. i needed his support and reassurance.
He told me that if he couldnt see his friends when and where he wanted he couldnt see a future for us.
I was obviously shocked and upset, i was confused that he wasnt please i was feeling better- even though my jealousy was still there im better at controlling it.
I want to stay in this relationship, so i agreed. i do understand it must be hard for him, he's said before it is, but i would find it easier with his support. since ive agreed, i feel a bit panicy sometimes, like i dont know where he is or who he's with. I guess i'll just have to see how it goes, they say everyone desrves a second chance. I really hope he tells me if he's planning on seeing his friends, and that he proves to me that theres no reason for me to be jealous.
Kim x
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